I don’t take chances often when it comes to potential relationships. Sometimes the calculated risk of failure outweighs my desire to even go out and take that chance.
But last week was different.
To quote the Beatles, “I’ve just seen a face” through the means of social media. And although I was early to dismiss any chance of meeting this girl, my friends reassured to never say never. And what began as sincere doubt soon snowballed into putting myself out there and potentially meeting this girl. A girl who I never met or heard of before mind you, but one that had me captivated from the get-go.
So by the means of insane luck and determination, I ended up at a surprise birthday for an old friend from high school. And I as tested the waters, met new people, and made a good handful of them laugh… I saw her. Time froze, voices droned out, and all I saw was her walk in. Luck brought me up to this point so I could meet this girl, and it was up to me to make it count.
But, it didn’t.
My luck ran out, and my first impression was established. We only managed to talk for five minutes thanks to another guy trying to holler, and I figured out I did as much as I could without damaging anything yesterday. There’s a slim chance things can change and things can keep progressing, but as of right now I feel a bit defeated.
Alas, these feelings pass. And without question I took a leap of faith and introduced myself to the girl who I felt compelled to meet the moment I saw her. So although luck set up the stage and willpower brought me to perform, things didn’t pan out the way I hoped.
But it was a bold move forward. I’m sure high school Ryan would’ve been proud.